Heading toward bottom again

Well, I found a full time job but it's a call center thing and I am waking up shaking and heart pounding.  I don't know if I can hang on to do this.  I need to work but I am running out of options.  I would love to put my engineering degree to work but I can't do the crazy commute and work 60 get paided for 45 bs.  I need to be able to see my therapist.  I need to have some sanity around me.  I have live with batshit crazy for too long.  It's trying to drag me down into batshit crazy.  I 'm worried about losing my apartment, car, basically everything but some personal possessions.  I need some security and I have none.  I can't just give a job everything and have nothing left for me.  That is not living.  Getting the husband out of the picture was a good thing.  I was getting calmer, sleeping better, losing weight.  Now with this job I feel it coming back.  But I'm afraid I can't find anything else.