HE LEFT

Just like I suspected. He wasn't here when I got back from my Dad's. He had moved out while I was visiting my Dad for two and a half weeks. Before I left I even told him, " PLEASE don't leave me while I'm gone ! ", and he said NO I will be home. LIAR !! LIAR !! LIAR !! While I was at my Dad's he called me several times, and each time he acted like everything was okay between him and I. He even mentioned during a few of the phone calls what he wanted to do with me once I got home. Why did he do that ? Why didn't he take that opportunity to tell me the TRUTH ?! He could have easily told me that he was planning on leaving me soon. It wasn't as if I could have rushed home from my Dad's. He knew I couldn't come home until my sister got back from her trip, since she would be driving me back home. So no matter how upset and / or angry at him that I might have gotten, he wouldn't have had to deal with it face to face. At least if he would have told me the truth on the phone I would have had much better closure for this entire situation.

As if it wasn't bad enough that he left while I wasn't here, he also took several things that were not his property. Maybe that was part of the reason he planned on leaving while I was gone to my Dad's house. At least they weren't big items, but it's still aggravating just the same. He took most of my dvds - ( ones I had bought, and many that he had bought FOR ME ), and he took my most favorite pc rpg called " Dungeon Siege ". He took that knowing how hard it is to find it online. Plus even if I find it online, the only place I've seen it for sale wants around $ 30 bucks for it. I don't have that kind of money for a computer game, especially not now when he left me WITHOUT helping with June's bills that HE helped build up ! He had told me that once I got back from my Dad's he would help me with the bills, and deposit some money into my bank account. I didn't get why he wouldn't do it while I was at my Dad's, and I even asked him about that but he made a few very weak excuses. I had told him during one of our phone calls that I could give him my bank account number on the phone. But he refused to take it, and no wonder since he was already planning on leaving me very soon ! \

Today's been the FIRST FULL DAY without him here. It's been strange, because I keep feeling like he should come walking around the corner from the bedroom into the living room at any moment.... but of course he doesn't since he's gone now. Do I miss him ? I know I shouldn't. I know he doesn't deserve for anyone to miss him, but I can't lie I do miss him. Would I take him back AGAIN if he asks me one day to take him back.... AGAIN ????!!! ... HELL NO !!.... At least I do know that I shouldn't do that... and that for my own peace of mind... for my own sanity... I just CAN'T ! .... At least I have several friends I talk to every day online that have told me... IF he should ever contact me, and ask me to take him back AGAIN... PLEASE contact THEM FIRST !... so that they can talk me out of it !