He is dispicable

ugh, this in house seperation is getting harder for me by the minute , my stbx is such a heartless bastard. Excuse the language but he is just being a total arrogant jerk. He still maintains his friendliness most of the time but he is wearing thin too. So we have been snapping at each other. Just a little while longer , I will just have to hang in there. Such a small apartment we live in and that doesn't make it easier. I really can't wait till this is all over .  Makes me so mad still that 23 years together mean nothing to him. It just gets to me. . The good news is it seems (so far ) that he wants to be a part of our son's life. It's joint custody we agreed to but now I am thinking I should have went for full custody . But I will not change my mind because I know it is best for My son to have both parents in his life. my stbx mentioned that he wants to move to another state one day, and maybe my son would want to go with him.. That just makes me angry. I'm thinking yea, when my son is an adult and can make his own decisions,joint custody means joint so I'm trying to calm myself . It's hard to live with someone who doesn't even care about me and also it's hard to live with someone I am so constantly angry at.  I am trying to just let go of these feelings of anger and betrayal and take it easy till this divorce is all done.. It is much harder said then done. Every word that comes out of my stbx' s mouth just gives me negative feelings . Anger, sadness, irritation, it tough. The lawyers office said they turned the divorce decree for the judge to review. , even though we haven't attended the kids first program yet they put the date we will be going (next month) so lawyer office said the judge may or may not grant the divorce at this time but hey did say when he granted the divorce they would send us the final paperwork. It is so frustrating , but I think we are in the home stretch.im guessing I have to tolerate this till after the kids first mandatory program theN if the judge grants our divorce We can work on him moving out. Ugh !!!!!!!! Just venting   It Just is so hard .