having a good boss at work,

I have been watching this pattern that my Dr. hinted at one day - that I ebb and flow quite a bit - and now I am seeing it big time.

It's not overwhelming me by surprise but I am adjusting to it (like I did at work today). There's an evolution to my day every day - 

and I am learning to be sociable even when I feel a mixture of things. Like a mixture of happiness and sadness or intensity.

Today i kept working, and I kind of realized that it's good to have a good boss at work. Someone who leads the team, focuses the group's efforts and attentions and makes for a quality group effort result. I remember once when I was having tilework done in my kitchen. The tile crew was eager to finish - and I stepped in and told them to finish certain details - over and again and the result was excellent.

Anyways, I am thinking it's probably good to have a boss in life - like God - who can direct and edit your efforts and character.

I don't know for sure. Right now, I guess I am still looking for answers when it comes to putting myself into a full time employment

thing. I can do grunt work - and become a very capable workhorse. At one time I had a good sense of design but that's all gone now or just really inactive. I run away from social responsibilities sometimes. I don't focus on relationships so well. I mean I have a few friends. All food for thought.