Haven’t written in a long time

I just haven't felt like I had much to say lately. I think for the most part, for the last 2 weeks, I've been numb. Not many feelings, not much going on. Just going through the motions. If I've had any anxiety or depression, it's been bits and pieces and I've worked through it.

I have been able to keep some of the bad habits away, just for my subconscious to bring it up. But I've still fought against acting on it.

I so feel like I had been making good progress from seeking praise and attention, but lately, I have fallen back into those habits. Some of it stems from my store manager, who I just can't seem to not talk to. In little ways, he shows his appreciation for my work, even if I'm not searching. But then I get bored and seek out anything and anyone to distract me from the boredom.

I miss my department manager. She's been on vacation this week, but even since her last vacation, I have barely been able to talk to her or anything. I know I probably shouldn't view her as a friend, but she is. That's how it's always been with us. She has been the one person at work who has always supported me and even had my back over others. So it's been weird, lonely at times.