have been very sick

ok, im back on for a little wile. son is at his one day a week job, so i have  a few hours. i am at a lose as to how to go about even talking to him anymoore. of course, i said the wrong thing again as i was takeing him to work. he is so angry all the time. i allways seem to make him madder. i realy wish i would have tought him something wene he was young about the world. i coudled him so much now the poor thing is 24 yrs old and acts like he is 15. he is so deppressed and angry all the time. i dont know what he is going to do . i just cant even hardly think about it any moore. ive wrecked a whole person. i wish now that i would have givin him up like i was going to . there was a dactor and his wife that realy wanted him, he could have liveed in california, had may be a chance at a future. i am realy at my wits ednd. i put in 5 apps last week. havnt heard from anyone at all. i have too much computition out there with these young skinny girls. going to go try to calm down, maybe exersise. i just want to sleep forever...