Hard to leave the apt, feeling better though, Mon Oct 13, 2015 11 a.m. ish

Well, this is a different color. Woke up OK today, not so anxiaty riddin, still there, but have to try and be more positive again. Need to go out and take my aunt to the store and i of course don't want to leave. Did not do good on my diet yesterday, all i ate all day was a pc and a half of ww tst, then i didn't eat all day, very bad, went to b.f. place for a while but came back home, by the time i ate i was so afraid that i would get sick that i ate chic noodle soup, so i havn't been sick in over a week i think, ya it was 2 week's now, yay me. i am eating more and i feel like i may be gaining weight, hope not. Need to go workout so bad. Seeing my social worker tomorrow and Wed is the first of the teeth pulling for my son, got the paper work they need on Sat thank god. Need to find out how much today, and hit my oldest up for some money also, have an email sent to him and now i can't find him on facebook, figures, i NEVER ask him for money, but i have to. Hate to but have to. OK well at least i slept pretty good, washed my hair last night, needd a haircut so bad, they call my Repunsil in my family, like i'm wearing a coat on my head and i can't do anything w/ it and it's way too long, and damaged. OK need to go medicaite, and eat and straighten up here, allready lookin shabby, as i am very lazy and the inurshia. But i am better, had talk w/ boyfriend, he must have been just in a bad mood the other night. OK more later
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                    GO CARD'S!!!!!!!!
ALL THE VIOLENCE IN MY POOR TOWN, WE REALLY NEED THIS, I don't go out at night as much as i used to and i live in a pretty safe place, it's changed the way i do thing's. Said i was not afraid, but i kinda am after dark when alone a little. OK that is really all for now, back later........