Happy Easter Baby!
Baby,
Well, another holiday I've had to endure without you. They are still hard, but if there is anything I can say to those who are just joining us here, it does get easier. Less tears with each passing day. Although, yesterday I had the whole day to run errands by myself and found little things making me think of you and making me sadder than I've been lately.
The boys and I went to my folks' house for the day. Dinner as usual, games, music, then we filled a pinata with candy and Tannon and Taylor hit it. It was fun. All the family out in the drive watching them. I missed you!
Your daughter, Mandy, came by for an hour. I am glad that she is chosing to still be a part of my family. Your girls and their families will always be welcome in whatever we do. I just hope they will come be a part of it. I just feel if I can keep a relationship with them, then I'll always have a part of you. I just hope your ex doesn't talk them out of staying in touch. I guess that is something I can't control.
We are all talking about going to Elk County for Memorial Weekend to fish and hang out. But I don't think I'm ready to go there yet. Not without you. I loved watching you spend from dawn til dusk out in the boat. Sometimes until midnight. I'd go to bed, wake up and when I didn't find you next to me, look out the window to see your lantern burning out on the lake, still fishing. I don't know that I can go without you.
Well baby. Just wanted to tell you I love you and miss you. Its almost been 5 months. Just a couple weeks shy of it. It seems like forever most of the time. Yet, it has only been a few months. I can't imagine not having you here with me for years.....please stay in my memories and in my heart. I am afraid I will forget and I don't want to.
Love you MOST!!!
Well, another holiday I've had to endure without you. They are still hard, but if there is anything I can say to those who are just joining us here, it does get easier. Less tears with each passing day. Although, yesterday I had the whole day to run errands by myself and found little things making me think of you and making me sadder than I've been lately.
The boys and I went to my folks' house for the day. Dinner as usual, games, music, then we filled a pinata with candy and Tannon and Taylor hit it. It was fun. All the family out in the drive watching them. I missed you!
Your daughter, Mandy, came by for an hour. I am glad that she is chosing to still be a part of my family. Your girls and their families will always be welcome in whatever we do. I just hope they will come be a part of it. I just feel if I can keep a relationship with them, then I'll always have a part of you. I just hope your ex doesn't talk them out of staying in touch. I guess that is something I can't control.
We are all talking about going to Elk County for Memorial Weekend to fish and hang out. But I don't think I'm ready to go there yet. Not without you. I loved watching you spend from dawn til dusk out in the boat. Sometimes until midnight. I'd go to bed, wake up and when I didn't find you next to me, look out the window to see your lantern burning out on the lake, still fishing. I don't know that I can go without you.
Well baby. Just wanted to tell you I love you and miss you. Its almost been 5 months. Just a couple weeks shy of it. It seems like forever most of the time. Yet, it has only been a few months. I can't imagine not having you here with me for years.....please stay in my memories and in my heart. I am afraid I will forget and I don't want to.
Love you MOST!!!
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