Happy Birthday Josh!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH!!!! TODAY @ 5:30 AM YOU TURNED 19 IN HEAVEN. MY HEART, BODY AND SOUL WANT YOU HERE WITH YOUR DADDY AND I. YOU SHOULD BE HERE CELEBRATING WITH US, FAMILY AND FRIENDS. BUT FOR SOME REASON IT DID NOT TURN OUT THAT WAY. TONIGHT YOUR DADDY AND I WILL GET TOGETHER WITH A GROUP AT YOUR FAVORITE MEXICAN RESTURANT FOR DINNER. THE GROUP WILL NOT BE AS BIG THIS YEAR BECAUSE EVERYONE CONTINUES ON WITH THEIR LIFE. AS THEY SHOULD. I FEEL LIKE ALOT OF PEOPLE FORGOT YOUR BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR. DOES THAT MEAN THEY ARE FORGETTING YOU???? I DON'T THINK SO, BUT IT DOES NOT MAKE IT FEEL ANY BETTER. YOUR DADDY AND I TOOK THE DAY OFF AND ARE JUST HANGING OUT. PEOPLE CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHY WE TOOK IT OFF. BUT UNTIL THEY LOSE A CHILD THEY WOULD NOT UNDERSTAND IF I EVEN TRIED TO EXPLAIN IT. I MISS YOU MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY. AM I SURVIVING? YES. BECAUSE I HAVE NO CHOICE. I HAVE TO CARRY ON TO KEEP YOUR MEMORY ALIVE. WORDS JUST CAN'T EXPRESS THE EMPTINESS I FEEL. GIVE US A SIGN TONIGHT THAT YOU ARE WITH US AND SEND US A HUG FROM UPSTAIRS. I LOVE YOU MY PRECIOUS SON MORE THAN I EVER EXPRESSED TO YOU AND HOPED YOU KNEW JUST HOW MUCH. WITH ALL OF MY LOVE, MAMA
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