hanging in there

Well, I'm brand new here today and I'm not quite sure what to do with this site.    I have 10 months, 3 days sober from drinking, which I do with the support of AA groups, but I have no sponser and am not working the steps.  Not drinking has actually been easier than I thought and I still speand time at pubs as my boyfriend is a singer and often performs there.   I also have 1 month and 15 days free of pot, which I gave up by moving to a country where it's seriously punishable, from a county in the US where it's legal, both for personal use as well as Medicinal use.  That has been difficult...I find myself looking at photos on you tube of local (home) pot growers and wanting to beem myself over for a toke or two.  I have also had offers to get me some here, which I turned down due to lack of finances and fear of prosecution.  I'm afraid though that if I am out and about and someone has a lit J, I just might partake.      On top of all of that, my boyfriend and I are going to try and quit smoking cigarettes on New Years day....cold turkey!  What we speand on fags is equal to rent...and we struggle to pay that.    At times I have night sweats and night mares, from lack of pot I think.  I also occasionally induldge in the near beer every now and again.  I'm looking for support and friendship in here, and I will offer what I can.     Happy New Year everyone.    K