Had to sleep all day, so exhausted from yesterday. Thurs Nov 5, 2015

Well i havn't thrown up today, can't even or don't even want to pick a color if i did it would be this color anyway, i am so deppressed today, i don't know how long i can not know when i'm going to be sick or not. Living on cup o soup toay, so dehydrated, should haave went to the ER yesterday, but i had noone to talk me or if i took an ambulance, then how do i get back home? Have to take son for his 3rd dentist appt tomorrow, and i am allready broke, oldest son was supposed to give me some money on ti and now he is trying to come up with excuses, and he makes good money and has known about this for over 3 weeks and he promissed, lives 8 hrs away, i just am so down today, slept most of the day to try and recuperatite from yesterday. Just now took my anti deppresent, hope it stays down. Just so down i don't even knwo what to think anymore. Ive been threw so much in my life with all the trauma's and the accident and the big fall andeverything else that happened as a child. I feel so alone. ok waa waa waa i am a big babay and my kids don't have much to any respect for me, at leaste they don't show it. OK that is all, sorry to bring people down. 
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