Had to be a grown up today! YUCK!!

Today I had to be a grown up. Had to go to speak with a fiancial expert about how to invest what little life insurance I did receive. I asked my Father to go with me because he has to be the smartest business man I have ever met. It was difficult to sit there with a check that I knew was suppose to represent Jeff and his worth. I know I am extremely lucky that he had the forthought to even have life insurance. I am blessed that I can have enough to pay some bills and still invest so that I have some kind of a nest egg. But, several times, I teared up as the young banker was trying to explain bonds vs international and national stocks and investments. I didn't want to be there. I wanted to tell him he could keep the money if he'd just get Jeff back for me.
Today, I hated being a grown up!