Had a very bad day today, all day, Sat Aug 22,2015

Well this on is all on me.
OK, WENT W/ MY AUNT YESTERDAY, WAS GONE FROM 4.30 P.M. TILL 10 P.M. AND I DIDN'T EAT MUCH OF ANYTHING, THAT WAS SOO BAD, AND I DIDN'T DRINK NEAR ENOUGH WATER, DIDN'T EAT TILL 1 A.M. THEN I ATE CHIP'S WHICH THE MED USSUALLY WORKS BUT I HAD LIKE NO WATER IN MY BODY. IT WAS A CLUSTER F#$@K TODAY. I HAVE GASTRITIS REALLY BAD AND I HAVE TO DRINK LOT'S OF WATER FOR MY NEW MEDS TO WORK, WHICH THEY REALLY DO, BUT NO, I WAS SO BUSY AND I LOST SOMETHING AT WALLMART AND HAD TO GO BACK AND RETRIEVE IT, I FOUND IT, CAN'T BELEIVE THAT ONE. SO THIS ONE IS ALL ON ME. HAD TO ENDUSE VOMIT AGAIN, THEN I COULDN'T EAT OR DRINK ALL DAY. I AM TRYING SO HARD TO BE POSITIVE, IT'S SO HARD, THOUGHT I WAS HAVING A HEART ATTACK AGAIN, DON'T HAVE A BAD HEART, BUT IT WAS A GREAT BIG PANIC ATTACK, COULDN'T TAKE MY ANXIATY MED CAUSE EVERYTHING I TRIED MADE ME SICK, ESSPECIALLY WATER. SO I AM STILL TRYING SO HARD TO FIND THE POSITIVE IN THIS.EATING CUP O SOUP RIGHT NOW, THEN I WILL EAT SOME RICE LATER, AND I JUST GOT ALL THIS GOOD FOOD AND FRUIT, AGAIN. 
I AM STILL TRYING W/ THE POSITIVE, AND I HAVEN'T SEEN MY DOVE TODAY AT ALL. WELL, WHEN I GET THAT TIME MACHINE WORKING, THEN I CAN GO BACK AND EAT RIGHT. HA. DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EAT AND HOW MUCH WATER I NEED TO REPLENISH MY BODY. THIS HAS TO STOP. STILL NOT DEFEATED, IT'S JUST HARD DAY'S LIKE THIS. OK HUG'S TO YOU ALL