guy troubles..

I really really like this guy.. He makes me laugh and smile so much it hurts. I love the way I feel when I talk to him. He means soo much to me! But I am 99% sure he doesn't feel the same.. not now for sure.. I think I screwed up any POSSIBILITY of him maybe liking me.. Not that it matters much.. He could do soo much better than me... But now I feel like I ruined our friendship too... A friend of ours says he thinks I stand a better chance than I think.. But I doubt it... I just wish I knew how to make up for my stupidity... And I wish for once I was actually good enough for somebody as amazing as him... At this point I kinda think I'd almost rather just be alone for the rest of my life.... Getting tired of feeling like I will never be good enough...