Guilt?????????????

  Had a little fun last night with my web cam. Learned I'm a bit of an exebisionist. Oh well, had some fun anyway. It was something I never did, and won't do too often, and it was with someone I trust. started to get into a little guilt about it, but then I brushed that aside. i really don't feel bad. No harm, and it wasn't wrong. I did think about why I felt that tho, and I remembered that my father always used guilt with me. Most of my life I felt guilt over so many things and never knew really why. I just felt it so I guessed I was bad. Just goes to show that feelings are not always true. We beleive them, and go with what they tell us, when we identify ourselves with them. My feelings are not who I am. I have them, but I think that we need to take controle of them, and not let them dictate our lives. Taking controle of our feelings is growing up, something I never really did in that aspect. We need to look at the facts, and ask ourselves questions. What are the facts? Is it really wrong, or is that thought comming from something I learned long time ago. Something that was programed at an early age, where I never had the capacity, or intelectuality to reason, or question properly to reach a reasonable conclusion. Often feelings that seem wrong to us stem from what we learned in our infancy, where our minds were first programed by others. We took most things just at face value because it was said from others we trusted. Because of our infancy we didn't have the capacity to question. We just accepted as an inocent juvenile. We need to look at those as those things arise. This did help me to understand that, and to pay attention to what goes on in my mind. My mind is not who I am. it has a lot of misinformation. I'm so glad that In can learn this, and it's only because I can think clearly without drugs or alcohol. That you Lord. I can go through my day now without feeling guilty. Thank you.