grrrr!!!!! throw me in a ditch pls someone!!!!!!!!

im feeling so shit. just wanna not wake up. throw me in a ditch and i wouldnt care less right now. mydad really not helping. its like his punishing me as i cant work he keeps telling me to clean whole house up each day. and if i dont do it i get shouted at some days i dont feel like doing fuck all but he dont understand. feel so shit. asked me tonight to tidy my bedroom so i did then he said now wash up everything7  just tAKES THE PISS waaa waaa