Growth
Apparently, suffering is a part of growth. Well, here I go again but I wonder just how much suffering growth a being has to go through before enough is enough. Surely there are more pleasant ways to grow too. The balance sheet of my life is heavy on the suffering aspect. I am very kind and intelligent and have come through hell from the day I was born. I am 62 now and learning at the speed of light but life continues to throw those curve balls. For the past 3 years my health has wrecked havoc on my life and continues to escalate and become more and more difficult to cope with.
However, I will do the best I can with the most positive attitude I can muster as I deal with this new phrenic/vagus nerve palsy that is affecting my ability to breathe and get sufficient oxygen and filling my body with even more severe pain than the fibromyalgia already does.
I am removing the thought "I want to kill something about now" from my negative pain thinking. I am replacing that with "things are gonna get better soon." There, I feel better already.
Hugs and gratitude to all of you here on DS for your kind support and hugs as I go through this. :)
However, I will do the best I can with the most positive attitude I can muster as I deal with this new phrenic/vagus nerve palsy that is affecting my ability to breathe and get sufficient oxygen and filling my body with even more severe pain than the fibromyalgia already does.
I am removing the thought "I want to kill something about now" from my negative pain thinking. I am replacing that with "things are gonna get better soon." There, I feel better already.
Hugs and gratitude to all of you here on DS for your kind support and hugs as I go through this. :)
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hey deelyn . i\'m sorry you are in so much pain. iknow it all too well. so i just try to listen to music, meditate, very little but anyway the computer helps me get by the pain sometimes. i cannot type good because my hands are not working, neurological stuff. so yeah you are in my prayers to feel better. and it sometimes is very helpful with a little TLC. tender loving care. i have faith in you. it is a state of mind that is so difficult. so i hope you get some relief tonight. \'\'hugs\'\' gizzzzzzzz
Awww sweet Dee, so so sorry to hear of this latest health issue. IF anyone has had enough of their fair share of crud in life, it is you my friend. I pray for you to heal this coming year. I pray for you to be happy this coming year! I wish I could make the pain all just go away for you. Your positive attitude and genuine caring and concern for others are an inspiration to me and others also I\'m sure! KNOW you are loved and we CARE about you my dear. Take care of YOU! Sending warmth, love and light to you, feel better. Gentlest hugs i can give ((((Dee)))) xoxo AB
Thank you so much for the support. Hugs. I have an ultrasound on Mon. and an Internist/Respirologist apptmt. on Wed. Yay!! I can deal with whatever this is but I at least want to know what is causing all this pain and breathing difficulty.
I will post as I can. Hugs. :)
staying close , you must have had overdose of paingrowth.
i do not know how you use computer, but i have a laptop and a metal bedtray. so i recline in bed , which takes the pressure off my spine and legs. sitting at a desk i can only do for a limited amt of time. (((hugs dee)))
Thank you so much spiritlost1, yes, i use a yoga ball and try to move it so that i am not stationary as i will seize up in pain after about an hour. lying in bed with laptop is not much better. Sometimes i am sad that i cannot just do what i want when i want, but then i feel gratitude that most of my life was very physically healthy. Now i have mucho pain and limitations with some new medical issues to deal with but i will do what i can day to day and still keep focusing on the positives that are in life all around and inside me, including friends like you spiritlost1. Hugs. :)