Growth
Apparently, suffering is a part of growth. Well, here I go again but I wonder just how much suffering growth a being has to go through before enough is enough. Surely there are more pleasant ways to grow too. The balance sheet of my life is heavy on the suffering aspect. I am very kind and intelligent and have come through hell from the day I was born. I am 62 now and learning at the speed of light but life continues to throw those curve balls. For the past 3 years my health has wrecked havoc on my life and continues to escalate and become more and more difficult to cope with.
However, I will do the best I can with the most positive attitude I can muster as I deal with this new phrenic/vagus nerve palsy that is affecting my ability to breathe and get sufficient oxygen and filling my body with even more severe pain than the fibromyalgia already does.
I am removing the thought "I want to kill something about now" from my negative pain thinking. I am replacing that with "things are gonna get better soon." There, I feel better already.
Hugs and gratitude to all of you here on DS for your kind support and hugs as I go through this. :)
However, I will do the best I can with the most positive attitude I can muster as I deal with this new phrenic/vagus nerve palsy that is affecting my ability to breathe and get sufficient oxygen and filling my body with even more severe pain than the fibromyalgia already does.
I am removing the thought "I want to kill something about now" from my negative pain thinking. I am replacing that with "things are gonna get better soon." There, I feel better already.
Hugs and gratitude to all of you here on DS for your kind support and hugs as I go through this. :)
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