Grace's Birthday
Today was Grace's birthday and Geo and I went to his dad's house to celebrate. She just turned 5. I felt really bad at the end of the day when we were leaving... I asked Grace for a hug and she just walked away. I don't know why she doesn't like me. It just made me feel bad. I'm going to ask Geo about it later. I have my appointment for my general doctor tomorrow but hopefully he can help me with my mental problems. My memory is almost gone, I'm getting nerve twitches, nightmares, I don't know where I am in the middle of the night, and I just feel a lot of pain. I don't know what's going on, but I don't need to go to the hospital. I'm not a danger to myself or anyone, and I can take care of myself. So I don't need to go in, I just need a med tweak. My doctor has known me the entire 8 years I've been living here, so it's not like he doesn't know me. I'll see what he says tomorrow. I'm going to get a new psych soon because mine is retiring. I know nothing about my new one. I just hope I don't get sent back to Dr. Pozo because he's arrogant and doesn't listen. I will call tomorrow to see about it. I want to wake up early tomorrow so I can go to the gym. It's normally packed on Mondays, but I need to start exercising again.
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good news and sad news.... that is heartbreaking about grace, why in the world has she never warmed to you? the only thing I can think of is that you remind her of something that triggers her but that doesn\'t make sensce either. I worry about my memory very much, esp. my sort term, it is almost gone. I have been doing simple word searches but the aren\'t helping, I need to be more stimulated I think and get my brain working that is very scary your reactions you are having, what meds do you take again? I hope you dont get the bad doctor, there is nothing worse. many hugsss an hope youhave a good day!
I hope you went to the gym. Did you speak with the dr? Good luck with all you are going threw. I hope the dr. has some answers.. it sounds very scary to me. Thinking of you and hoping things improve. HUGS
I hope the Drs appt turned out good! It seems to me like those symptoms could be side effects of one of your medications so i hope the doctor took you serious and looked into all that to make adjustments.
Im sorry Grace behaved that way :( You are so kind and caring I would really try to not take it personally. At age 5 theres so many odd reasons kids do the things they do...... she might not have hugged because she was to wrapped up in the thought of going to play with something new she got for her birthday? Or is she just not the huggie type of kid? (My 17 yr old has NEVER been a huggie type of kid even when he was little) or like Ann said maybe hugs are triggering for some reason for her at this age? The list is really endless but the reason probly really have nothing to do with you personally but it still hurts to be treated that way :(