gotta give myself pleasure

i think i am seeing that I have physical and emotional needs or maybe seeing

the nature of them. I'm understanding them with a sense of perspective.

I can sort through things in life to understand my mental health

and life. But I also have the extreme needs to keep me balanced

and moving forward. I think of it like this. I know I can think like

a healthy person - but I also know- that my extremed needs for

whatever indulgence that I may need is something that is probably 

in part a quality of my mental health challenge. I know there is no

box to put this observation in - it's such a fluid and nuanced and

a spectrum type thing of life. So I am just more keenly aware of giving myself

the things I need while also staying present to myself as a viable responsible

individual.