Got to see the Good Doc
Today I got to see the good doctor, Dr. Miller. I didn't even have to pay extra to see him. I'm happy about that, since I would rather see him than the bad doctor. Tomorrow I go with Geo to see our GP, Dr. Rodriguez. I don't have an appointment with the GP, but Geo does. I'm excited to see how much weight he has lost. He has been working hard at losing weight, so I hope it shows. My biggest fear is that he hasn't lost, because that would be so discouraging to him. He has been doing a lot of things right, though, so it should show. For a couple weeks he was just eating soup and spaghetti since he was having stomach problems. The one thing that he needs to change that hasn't is his soda intake. Well, he is drinking less soda now and more chocolate milk, but he needs to drink water. I'm slowly working on him with that. I'm getting him off the soda first onto the milk, and then from milk to juice and from juice to water.
Today I didn't want to go to work. I felt like crap in the morning. I had this tightness in my chest that felt like an anxiety attack, but I didn't feel anxious. It just felt like someone was pulling me in the center of my chest. I was tired, but coffee fixed that. That tightness went away and then I had the coffee... I didn't have the coffee and then get the tightness in my chest. I just felt tired, since I worked a full day yesterday I didn't want to work another one today. I need to get used to it, though, since I'm going to be looking for part time work at the clinic so I have to get used to working 20 hours a week. That's why I'm trying it out first here volunteering to make sure I can do it. I am trying to work from noon to 5pm on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday so I can have Wednesday off to see my doctors and such.
Mood today was okay.. Like I said, I didn't want to go to work at first. Then once I got to work it got a bit better. I was happy to find out that I didn't have to pay double to see the good doctor, but then it drained my bank account. I'm trying to save up to see my sister's graduation, but I don't know if I can do it without getting a job. But if I do get a job, I will have to take time off to see her graduate, since it's going to be in LA on a Friday. I would have to take a Thursday, Friday and Monday off. I don't know if we will have a car by then... if we do then maybe I can work on that Monday. I just know that her party is going to be on Saturday night, the last thing I want to do is have to wake up at 3am the next day. But I should be able to see my Nana again. I just got back from LA and I'm already looking for my next trip out there.
I go back to therapy on Thursday. I don't know what I should focus on. I've been doing pretty good with my mood, and being stable and all that. I've gotten my medications worked out with Dr. Miller, and I've been pretty stable. I guess I should focus on the harder things, like the abuse I went through and such, but I don't know how much more I need to work on that stuff. I've done pretty well on that.. I was triggered by The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, but that would trigger people who haven't been abused I'm sure. I still have time to think about it, so I will think about it tonight and tomorrow. I want to be productive in therapy, so I have to have something to talk about.
Food today was good... I had a lot of protein today. I was low on it yesterday, so it's good that I got it in today. I had 3 chicken thighs today, one for breakfast and two for dinner. The ones for dinner were stuffed with mozzarella cheese and baked with breadcrumbs and sauce and came out amazing. Geo is a good cook, I can tell you that much. He knows what he's doing in the kitchen. Other than that, I had a Fiber One bar, and some chips with salsa. Sleep last night was okay.... I woke up after 11 hours of sleep but still felt a bit tired, so I went back to sleep and got 13 hours. I still felt tired, but I couldn't fall back asleep so I just rested for a bit then went to go see the doctor. I don't know why I didn't get a good night's sleep... I didn't take any sleeping pills or anything, fell asleep fine and everything. Oh well, all I can do is hope for a good night's sleep tonight. I don't know what time I have to be up tomorrow, but it shouldn't be too early. We have to take the bus to Geo's doctor, but his appointment isn't until 3:30pm, so we might have to leave around noon or so. I get to sleep in again, yay!
Today I didn't want to go to work. I felt like crap in the morning. I had this tightness in my chest that felt like an anxiety attack, but I didn't feel anxious. It just felt like someone was pulling me in the center of my chest. I was tired, but coffee fixed that. That tightness went away and then I had the coffee... I didn't have the coffee and then get the tightness in my chest. I just felt tired, since I worked a full day yesterday I didn't want to work another one today. I need to get used to it, though, since I'm going to be looking for part time work at the clinic so I have to get used to working 20 hours a week. That's why I'm trying it out first here volunteering to make sure I can do it. I am trying to work from noon to 5pm on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday so I can have Wednesday off to see my doctors and such.
Mood today was okay.. Like I said, I didn't want to go to work at first. Then once I got to work it got a bit better. I was happy to find out that I didn't have to pay double to see the good doctor, but then it drained my bank account. I'm trying to save up to see my sister's graduation, but I don't know if I can do it without getting a job. But if I do get a job, I will have to take time off to see her graduate, since it's going to be in LA on a Friday. I would have to take a Thursday, Friday and Monday off. I don't know if we will have a car by then... if we do then maybe I can work on that Monday. I just know that her party is going to be on Saturday night, the last thing I want to do is have to wake up at 3am the next day. But I should be able to see my Nana again. I just got back from LA and I'm already looking for my next trip out there.
I go back to therapy on Thursday. I don't know what I should focus on. I've been doing pretty good with my mood, and being stable and all that. I've gotten my medications worked out with Dr. Miller, and I've been pretty stable. I guess I should focus on the harder things, like the abuse I went through and such, but I don't know how much more I need to work on that stuff. I've done pretty well on that.. I was triggered by The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, but that would trigger people who haven't been abused I'm sure. I still have time to think about it, so I will think about it tonight and tomorrow. I want to be productive in therapy, so I have to have something to talk about.
Food today was good... I had a lot of protein today. I was low on it yesterday, so it's good that I got it in today. I had 3 chicken thighs today, one for breakfast and two for dinner. The ones for dinner were stuffed with mozzarella cheese and baked with breadcrumbs and sauce and came out amazing. Geo is a good cook, I can tell you that much. He knows what he's doing in the kitchen. Other than that, I had a Fiber One bar, and some chips with salsa. Sleep last night was okay.... I woke up after 11 hours of sleep but still felt a bit tired, so I went back to sleep and got 13 hours. I still felt tired, but I couldn't fall back asleep so I just rested for a bit then went to go see the doctor. I don't know why I didn't get a good night's sleep... I didn't take any sleeping pills or anything, fell asleep fine and everything. Oh well, all I can do is hope for a good night's sleep tonight. I don't know what time I have to be up tomorrow, but it shouldn't be too early. We have to take the bus to Geo's doctor, but his appointment isn't until 3:30pm, so we might have to leave around noon or so. I get to sleep in again, yay!
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It is fantastic that you got to see the Dr of choice and it did not cost anymore! I am holding good thoughts for Geo and his weigh-in. I know how much good scale number would boost his motivation!
The chicken thighs with the cheese and sauce ---Yumm!
great on seeing dr. miller nad no more money! i will be thinking of geo, i really hope his hard work will show, it will keep him determined.just curious, you got 11, then fell asleep for 2 more hours, yet you say it wasnt a good night. what do you consider a good night? hugsss
Happy to hear you got the doctor you like w/o paying extra
Hope Geo\'s dr visit shows he lost weight.
You are doing a great job helping to adjust to eating better.
Volunteering for 20 hours a week to see if you can handle a part/time job is smart.