got to figure something out

the twists and turns my mind takes during the sleep of night and the early morning 

shouldn't derail me from believing I can make my own goals...

having a 'job' to go to has provided structure - and like a discipline to find routine

and clarity  through that structure

but now I am trying to set my sights on other activities and other 'professional' pursuits.

one of the reasons i have been so despairing and also feeling incapable of seeing

the possibility of my own pursuit - a reliable will and mental state to move forward -

is because my mind is so labile. But now I know I have to lift myself up

beyond that mailstrom of all the twists and turns - - and maybe give it a nod - like 'I see you' and get back on the path

to creating my own life... professional life 'god willing.'

starting my day here - got up around 5a - showered and dressed and then went for coffee..

been playing with Blue and listening to classical music online...  https://www.kusc.org/

I hope you guys have a good start to your morning - and an excellent weekend as the days unfold.

Sending peace and prayers and good vibes...

Mark