Goodnight

I feel like I'm going to cave in on myself. I'm trying so hard to focus on myself, but the truth is I'm letting some people get to me. It hurts when I'm in a bad mood and my complaining is annoying you. It hurts when I'm in a good mood and I'm annoying you. I feel like I always seem to be "Too much" of something. I have a few wonderful friends on here, but there is so much crud piling around me. I think I'm paranoid. I think I constantly feel like people are mad at me when they really aren't. I don't know what to do. I just end up crying myself to sleep over this shit. And I feel like it is so immature of me. But with all my other constant proplems going on, I just end up swelling up with emotion and I can't seem to let anything go. I'm constantly thinking "What it is about me they don't like?" Or "what am I doing wrong"....What am I doing wrong?