Goodnight
I feel like I'm going to cave in on myself. I'm trying so hard to focus on myself, but the truth is I'm letting some people get to me. It hurts when I'm in a bad mood and my complaining is annoying you. It hurts when I'm in a good mood and I'm annoying you. I feel like I always seem to be "Too much" of something. I have a few wonderful friends on here, but there is so much crud piling around me. I think I'm paranoid. I think I constantly feel like people are mad at me when they really aren't. I don't know what to do. I just end up crying myself to sleep over this shit. And I feel like it is so immature of me. But with all my other constant proplems going on, I just end up swelling up with emotion and I can't seem to let anything go. I'm constantly thinking "What it is about me they don't like?" Or "what am I doing wrong"....What am I doing wrong?
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Arrrrggghhhh I know these feelings well,
I will promise you this - you have never been anything other than nice and caring towards me and normally have raised a smile! Which is just ace. I have never seen you do or say anything rude or hurtful, you just seem like one of the nicest and most genuine people there is. You make me happier, I am glad of your friendship here.
I understand the guilt but from an external perspective, like when you said you ask too much, you have never ever asked anything of me! In ways I wish you would because you deserve happiness and I would be proud to help in whatever I can.
Anyway, a hundred, a million times over you have not annoyed me.
Crying is fine, not immature. So long as we can change... I like you, I think the most difficult thing is learning to like ouselves but you are just a good person, really you are.
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
they probably have issues too. might even be thinking the same thing as you. some people are introverts too, with social anxiety. they only talk for a few minutes here and there. no matter what you do, theyre still going to stop talking... just who they are.