Goodbye Eno.

  Today was a sad start. I found Little Eno the fish dead this morning. Not sure what happened. I was taking care of him regularly. I think because we didn't have a tank with a water filter to properly clean the water was probably the reason. I thought I didn't care for him much, but I do miss him. He was kinda part of the family in some way. I put away his bowl and food, but it's like his spot is missing. anyway, it's too bad. He was a pretty fish. The rest of the day went pretty good. work went fairly well. We had to through out all the meat for the deli because of the big food poisoning at Maple Leaf. Thats really been a disaster for them. A few more people died because of the poisoning. Everyone seems worried now about meats. Maple leaf is a really big meat distributer so this is really bad for them. They are one of the main supplyers for all the big food chains. I guess things happen tho. Hope no one else dies. I see that Maple Leaf already has a commercial appologizing and taking responsibility for it. just goes to show how infallible we really are still. With all the health, safty, and sanitation standards, all the government inspectors that supervise everything, and I know in meat places they do watch everything, but still something wrong happened. I worked in a slaughter house before where they processed meat. They do a lot of things but sometimes people get complaicent, or compliant. I remember this one inspector used to take pay offs to do things. anyway, thats life. supposed to be going with Bob tonight, but it's getting late. Not sure if he'll show. I hope not. I'm a little tired and could use going to bed a little early. I noticed today that because I felt a little run down, my mi9nd was a bit more negative in it's thinking. I was more quiet than usual and thinking about others and what they might think of me. Meaning the people at work. I know it doesn't matter what they think. I do a good job, but I do feel a little ostricized from them at times. It plays on my head. They mostly work together and talk in the kitchen. They have lunch and breaks together. I'm mostly on my own. I have my breaks and lunch at differant times, which I like anyway. I get to read my stuff and meditate. I just feel differant sometimes because I know I'm an alcoholic. They don't do the things I need to do. They don't go to meetings, or seem to need God like I do. It's just differant. I know that it's all right, and that I'm doing what I need to, but because I've been open about it, sometimes I feel that they look at me like I'm handicapped or something. Anyway, I'm glad I'm doing what I'm doing. Anyway, I thank you Lord that you are with me. Never let me lose sight of that. Amen.