good morning prayer

last night and this morning I struggled with my self in such a big way..

I finally accepted the broken idealism and but persisted to follow my interests

and responsibilities. I went to sleep

and woke up this morning feeling quite differently..

what was all the mix up inside and what was the answer for me.

It came to me that I have needs and it's important for me to give to them

and not just be at the ready to give it to my current circumstances... It's like there

was a two sided coin here.

I don't know if that makes sense but I am finding that tending to 'my need' helps

create a kind of vector in life, just as my interests and my responsibility - 

and when I learn to give to my needs - it also helps me to not be so dependent

on others to fill that void for me - and so in that sense it is part and parcel of

being on top of that too. 

I am just grateful this morning - and saying a prayer...Life is a wonderous thing..

Now on to getting on with the day!