good morning
It's a really confusing morning - but I will write about it anyway.
Things are good - and though I woke to my mind needling away
at me - at all the things I did wrong the day before - I remembered
my last conclusion of the night before going to sleep - and that was
that what I seek when I am alone is an affirmation of my identity.
I may get caught up in lots of mentalizations and ideas but
for the most part it's pretty all about wanting to be with other people,
in community - affirming each other. It was a hard thing for me to write
down as I went to sleep - so I am writing it now.
The needling got to me this morning - but I found I was more aware that
it was due to the cause I stated...and i was able to put it to rest.
I am finding things that affirm me and I am starting to relax.
I am finding things that affirm me and I am starting to relax.
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now I just need to worry about building my day... peace
Good morning Markus! I am writing from the road. Drinking my morning hotel room coffee that has a slight tinge of chlorine from the oversterilized coffee maker. Haha.
I finished my book I was reading and it was sooooo good to read. Jeff Tweedy’s Let’s Go (So We Can Get Back). My boss and I have a book exchange going on and reading autobiographies touching upon so many things I’ve thought about over the years is really comforting. I found great solace in it. Creative process, mental health, family struggles, self-doubt. I’m in some big university literary town so going to go for a walk to explore. I’ll share any stories later on. :)
I hope you’ll find a relaxing peaceful Sunday ahead.
Thanks Nikki! That’s so great you have a book exchange with your boss!! Have a great vacation!
just for some additions to this journal: I am realizing not having a plan for my day is a bit like drinking
alcohol and stuffing food in my mouth to deal with life. Not great for my mental health..I am realizing
I have got to do some things with my day ,,,,plan and go for them. Do some things that make me feel accomplished/affirmed.
You're growing into your self-awareness and the joy of sharing yourself with you! Way to go!
thanks Mid!