....good morning

I woke up this morning from a really deep sleep.

As I went to bed it was like I was trying to hold onto all

of the lessons and struggles of life and the athletic nature of life

as a way to just block out all of the kind of panic and solitary

nature of what we all have to deal with.

That is comforting to think, that we are all dealing with it.

With the reality that we're all battling forward in life.

What we want to be comfortable in life is by nature not  -  it is something that is

inherently dynamic and athletic and uncomfortable most

of the time.

So I woke up - and put on some clothes - and like I planned,

I walked to the Starbucks and got a hot drink.

I felt rejected by the barista and I tried to not go down a rabbit

hole with that. She's just dealing with her morning and the job

at hand. So where I might have felt comfortable at one point in the shop  - I now

felt an unwelcome stranger. It just set me to thinking - and again

I won't go down a rabbit hole, at least I'm trying not to. I'll stay in the moment and in my own focus

of what I have to do in life - and make plans. It did set me to thinking

about plans and how grateful I am to have work. A manager was interviewing a candidate

for a Starbucks job while i was there. She was asking such intricate questions!!!

all for a stinkin' Starbucks Job. So crazy what it takes to be hired these days.

Again I am so grateful for my job and their acceptance of my quirks and my age.

I was very lucky to get this job and I've fought to keep it for 11 years so I shouldn't

take it lightly when I have thought about changing work.

Things are good. I need to do some dishes and take a shower.

Then I'll make a call as well as visit the Erewhon Market - just to see

if it's a place I'd like to work.

Peace you guys!!