Good Dreams turn to Bad Dreams

I had a crazy dream about my Mother. I miss her so much and I think about her everyday and wonder about what we would be doing for every occasion. Every movie, tv show and song remind me of her. I cannot think of her for too long without crying. So, having dreams about her is(or was) nice because this way I could see her and "really" talk to her. I feel lately my dreaming of her has started to fade and I do not want that; I want to dream of her and remember her as much as possible.  So last night, while in the bed with Dwight, ready for sex and dealing with my IBS. I really want to get back with Dwight but cannot change his mind. This is something that I think about this every time we are together. Last night, after strange sex I had a dream about mommy, being sick and laying on a stretcher in our old back yard. Obviously, in the dream I would walk pass the window from upstairs( my old bedroom) and look to see if she was there. So this once I did and she was not laying in the back yard and I got worried and called my cousin and she said that my Aunt Sarah took her to the hospital. I called Aunt Sarah and she told me that Mommy died. I cried sooo hard in the dream that I woke up in real life crying out with tears. This has happened before so it did not scare me, but worried Dwight. Once after Mommy died, I dreamed that "it was all a dream". I woke up OUT OF MY MIND! He was the first person I called. So for him to witness this first hand was not an easy thing.
I later decided that this dream must have meant something and asked Dwight if we were ever getting back together. He said no, never. So I ended our "sex life". Mommy whom is dead died again, so my relationship with Dwight is dead and has died again. There is not coming back from Death. I do not know if it was the emotions from the dream(Dwight said yes) but I do not want to waste me time dealing with something that is dead.

Also, I dropped school for a while, only 2 weeks.