good day
things are good. while about to start work early this morning - i felt i saw myself in the eyes
of the religious community I am friends with - a feckless, inconsistent, ne'er do well, schlub - not
a person -
but then the fight in me started to have, and manifest, the strength of character that I hoped
to have - to appreciate the qualities I have and also the concept of acceptance - rather
than being completely at the whim of their opinion.
and so I thought as an essential part of it is to be of service too
I thought of my value and of anyone of how a partner who would choose me would make me feel valuable
because they chose me. it wowed me with disbelief but wonderment, the prospect ..
my sister and niece surprised me with a visit this morning - and it was so nice.
Anne hugged me and cried. It was so good to see them - and weird to see them
while i was dressed in my market uniform and breaching work etiquette - by reuniting!
I thought also about how Betty White was quoted as saying
"You don't luck into integrity, You work at it" ... so true.
I came home and did my usual routine and then almost without thought while
at home I sunk into the spinning about what I didn't have - and it was met today with the observation
that I could take that logical next step to give myself 'what to do in order to get' that
which i didn't have - whether it was companionship or a walk in the sun -
it's like I was have been living in blinding water before this -
then I found that I was looping in that moment of understanding and so then realized that
taking that initial first step towards getting 'on my way with things' took
putting some energy behind my mojo, if that makes sense, or desire, rather than sinking back
into the looping thoughts.
It really helped. Life is good!! :)
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(((((((((((((((((Marcos))))))))))))))))))) <3
Don’t ever forget how amazing you are
Sending support, love & a gentle hug <3
thanks lil missy! ((abrazo fuerte!))