Going To Get Started

I have been lonely for years now, and was a member of this site quite a few years back. However, due to illnesses and having computer issues, I wasn't able to really post or anything. My friends are all either married or working overtime now. I went from having a lot of people in my life to only having my parents. I decided now that it's best if I be progressive about it. I shouldn't just wait and hope something changes in my life, but rather do something. So I'm going to be online every day, and I plan to join some support groups in person.

Tomorrow I'm going to have my back tested. Hopefully the chiropractor can help, he's one of the best in this state. I injured my back 17 years ago when I was 13. It didn't bug me much then, but after I turned 20 it started acting up, causing paralysis if I used it much (like walking more than 5 minutes in 24 hours). I'm not lazy, I greatly enjoyed working when I was able to, and if I can once again walk, I'll start working again and focus on moving forward in my life. I need to move forward, I'm not getting younger.

In 2 days my MRI results on my brain should be ready. There are some things I'm wondering about, and I hope they're not the case. 

I'm not a negative person at all, I have been through a tough life, but I don't get depressed, I don't seek pity, I just seek to overcome. I'll overcome it all and move on with my life. There's so much I wish to do, and I won't let anything like health issues get in my way. One day I want to marry, but I want to get back as much of my health as possible first so that I can work, as that would be beneficial to marriage. 

So from today forward I'm focusing on getting better. I've already overcome alot, but I won't let anything set me back anymore, no excuses! Through any difficulty, I will remain happy and positive, as being depressed brings nothing good, which I learned as a teen.