going outside today to walk practice tues 10.25.2011

well, so fr so good. im still clinging to that walker for my life. i dont know how long tilll i can do it w/out walker. i think i should go slow. i called the ymca, and you have to be able to get down the stairs to get in pool. no houste that they know of, we will see. there is a water arobics class for hurt people, its 15.00 cant afford. going to beg my fam for the money. i realy need that. i will be living here for a while still. so afraid to go home. so many things have to be better. i have to be able to get up 3 big flights of stairss  AND GET BACK DOWN.dont know when or if i can ever drive agian. but i know im terrified about that. my leg locks up all the time./ so far no pain pills today. prob after i walk i will need at leaste one. try8ing to find domeone in fam who has a chair to put in tub. im soooo dirty. ive been w/ the sponge baths, just not the same. will be so happy if i could get in shower. prob have to go to ymca w/ sis and do the walk in shower. im scared about that. im pretty freaked out. i know i should be so happy, but i am debbie downer by the way.l im allready thinking about probs that havnt happnd yet old habits are VERY HARD TO BREAK. ok, by for now. moore later......