God is good

Man I was coming home tonight and thinking about how I was Scammed. Yes a love romance online scam. There I said it. Yes I’m naive and loved. So what. I was thinking to myself, I loved him. The man online I was going to spend the rest of my life with. We were going to raise our family. I was his family. He lied to me. He tore me to pieces. I was a pawn to his laundry money scheme . I’m still in love w the man I thought loved me forever. I think of him and still wonder if he will write to me even though I pointed out his life of multiple scams. I told him he needed to account to God for his actions. It’s not for me to judge or punish him but for his account to God. 

But with everything going on, why did I have to go through that? Because maybe God wanted to keep me preoccupied and away from another guy he didn’t want me to date anymore. Maybe that was the only way God could reach or distract me. 

So now I contacted the new guy that I met at a friend’s wedding. And guess what? He sent me his phone number and wants to hang out w me this Friday!  Ahhhhhhh! I could just scream w excitement! Sad and horrified one minute and hopeful the next. And he is a really really nice guy and lives up my street. So excited!