God Help Me ...
Why can't I let go? Why do I keep try to make him understand my feelings? Why do I care when I know that he is incapable of having any real feelings? Everything in his world revolves around him and his needs and there is no room for me to have needs. I know tha he is an N and a Psycopath and yet I cannot detach myself. It is truly like an addiction and the withdrawals are overwhelming. I feel terribly ill. I know he is unable to change and I know I deserve better. I deserve to be loved and respected. So why cannot extract myself from this situation. God Help Me!!
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because you fear the unknown. YOu fear detachment becuase you are probably enmeshed with him most likely due to your childhood caretakers way of raising you. Teh only way to leave is he is going to hurt you SO deeply enough times that you say enough is e nough, IO dont\' need this, or you are going to start planning now to get out. Dont\' know your financial isutation...you man need a job to feel secure financially, you need to get out and socialize meet people, friends, to see that you aren\'t crazy and that there are others out there that would emotioanlly support you, eventually you may feel strong enough to leave before he hurts you so badly. Do it the way you can, baby steps if you have to. You need support emotionally, you need ways of supporting yourself, it helps to have a connection with a higher power, family if possible, get phycially moving to get endorphins helping you out too. Hugs.