God, do I feel good

It's another beautiful day out. Cool, and not hot, and suny, suny, suuuuuuuuny! Yahoo! I can go for this kind of weather anytime. Just perfect. So nice at night time too. I couldn't sleep last night tho. Damned pharmacy delivery guy showed up after I went to work. I waited until 6. Oh well, I still feel good tho. Not really tired. Have to phone them again today. Anyway, everything seems to be going so good now. I'm working steady and finally able to make some money. That's so good. Seemed like for so long I was really just scrapping by just with pocket change. That can get pretty agravating after awhile. Have lots of good food, the cats are well taken care of. Clothes are clean, as well as the apartment, and I'm sober. I really love my sobriety now. I don't get any cravings hardly at all. The thought of drinking just makes me feel nausous. If I think about drinking at all, I can almost feel that shity feeling I used to live with everyday. All the awfull emotions, fear, anger, shame, depression, not sleeping well, and the contant feeling of expecting something bad to happen. I love this way so much better. When I drank I never drank anything else. Not water, coffee, juice, or pop. I love to taste those things, but I wouldn't drink anything but beer. It would make me so lazy, and I wouldn't get anything done that I wanted to, and things would just acumulate until I'de just be miserable. No, it doesn't do anything for me anymore. Just make me sick, sick, sick. good ridence to that shit. I really like that I can work very well, and like what I'm doing. It isn't a struggle anymore. People like the way I work, and they want me, and I like me. That's a really good feeling. I think I'm settling down about being lonely too. I'm pretty happy with things. I'de like to be with someone, but I'm leaving that in God's hands. If it's meant to be, it'll be. I brought home some more stuff that I got from the place where I work. I have another printer now. Really nice, and pretty new. I got a pair of Dell speakers for the computer now. It's really cool, and the sound is great. It has a woofer too. Sounds like real dolby sound. some of the stuff I got isn't any good tho. Some of the parts weren't with it. I had a mixer, but the blades weren't there. I had a wet/dry dustbuster, but the right cord wasn't there. I wanted that for the cat litter that gets outside the box on the floor. I have one already, but it's an electric cord, and a bit of a pain. Oh well, I'll get one some day. Sometimes they have them in the Thrift store for about $5.00. Just have to keep my eyes open. I called this other guy that's working for Ritchie painting. I was talking to him the other day to see if he had work, and he said he does. I left him a message yesterday, and he did call back. I just sense this good feeling that we could do some work together and make some good money. I'm hoping. I got a new chair yesterday for my computer. Very nice and new. I almost got this other one at the restaurant that I was painting. It looked new too, but it had a back masage, and vibrator built in. That would have been cool. I tried it out when I was there. Worked really good. It would slowly roll up and down your back rotating, kneeding and vibrating. So cool. Still might get it when I go back there. Well have to bath now. I have lots of new soaps, really good shampoos, shaving creams and other things from the place I'm painting. The people that were there left so much good stuff. It's incredible. I feel as if it's Christmas time. Thank you so much Lord