god damnit

well ive been up and down yesterday like last nite i was super sad i just cryed myself to sleep. even though things are actually going okay. i still feel sad. i just wanted to be held.i didnt have anyone to really talk to. i just felt so lonely.
today i go to the doctors again they are gunna put me on meds for my high blood pressure
eh more meds
i just found out  my old roomate janet has cancer:\ its so crazy how bad things happen to good people.
eh i feel like giving up on school so bad.
i miss people alot.
not only mimi i miss bri too
but she doesnt care.
us not talking, probally makes her happy
its killing me though
im finnally telling more ppl about my dad.
they actually understand.
have you ever felt just empty inside  like you have nothing
even though u do have stuff u do hacve people that love u but its like somtimes i am invisible almost like im already dead
yeah thats how i feel.
i just want to already do  somthing eh.
somthing big
i want to be known in this fucking world.
i want to do somthing incredible.
hah.
well im going to go. bye.