Go ahead beat me down some more

Go on say it.  I know that's what your thinking. It's me right. It's ALWAYS me, right.  Every one else has a reason or an excuse but me. No, I'm supposed to be perfect.  I am not supposed to want anything, I am not supposed to complain about anything.  I am supposed to be and do and think and say whatever you all want me to.  You have stolen my voice so I can only scream on the inside. You have taken all the fight out of me so I don't even want to fight for myself.  You take it all and then demand even more.  I have given so much there is none for me. So I am what you have made me and still you blame me. 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Oh Lost, I know how you feel, but you can\'t let them beat you down. We have to get our voices back but it does no good when we expect them to see things our way. I feel your anger as I too am going thru this. I think we need some intense therapy where we could just get away from it all and just work on ourselves.
Shelly4
Shelly4

Wow, I have been where you are so many times in the past. It is such a horrible feeling of isolation and lonliness. We are always fighting to please others, hide our emotions, give our all to every situation. Then, eventually, we explode. It helped me a great deal to work on co-dependency issues. I am not saying that is what you are dealing with but I was. I did not know how to appreciate myself or nurture myself and sought approval from everyone else.

You are beautifully made sweetie and you deserve to feel that. You are valuable and treasured.........

This site might be of some help and I am sorry if I am off base. Just wanted to share. xo

http://www.nmha.org/go/codependency