glad to be back

finally got my taxes back ,not much money since i have been out of work so long but enough to pay a few bills.at least my iinternet is back on. i didnt realize how important this site really was to me until i lost it.......i have been so very deppessed and LONELY !! i am still haveng trouble going to sleep ,i am afraid of the next days problems and conflicks.sometimes i just wish time would stand still so nothing else bad would happe in my life.christmas was very sad for me not being able to give my kids many gifts but i tried focusing on quality time instead.we made cookies and more cookies until they were comin from our ears lol.we watched lots of christmas shows together also.its still been a struggle for me dealing with everyday pain and deppression.i have had terrible panick attacks withflash backs from my accident.my brain tells me to get back out into the workforce we need money but my deppression and pain remind me i cant!!!!!besides there arent any worthwhile jobs that pay anything decent.my good vehicle got repoed befofe christmas now i have abroken down gas ahoilic......well i am getting pretty tired writing this and trying to catch up with everyone so good bye for just a little while I PROMISE!