Giving up narcotics, again

Thought I would be able to do it last time, guess I was wrong. As soon as Neil died, that all went downhill and now Im back where I started, is there any end to the emotional wreck that I am???
If I had just stayed away the first time round, everything would be fine now. I don't know how to replicate that lovely feeling the codiene gives me. If I could, then I wouldnt be back on them, I would be doing that thing that allows me to feel that good like before. Its a craving like wanting a ciggarette. The pains are magnified and my moods are so dull and bordering on apathetic, why can't I hold on to that nice, high magical mood and not let it go?
My emotions are so erratic lately, up and down with such intensity its hard to stop and think about what is really happening inside my head, gonna be a confusing few weeks for me now that the emotions are not under control with the drugs......

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mycroftt
mycroftt

Very glad that you are back...sorry to hear about your loss...I hope that you can find a good and new support system there to help you with getting through these painful and confusing episodes.
mycroftt
mycroftt

Try to contact N/A in Swansea !!