give myself a sense of belonging

I commented on Nikki's journal this morning

and I have to say that as the sunshine has started to rise

and the imminent departure for my Treepeople event comes

nearer, I am find myself feeling ostracized from my friends

and family. Like I am too much. Too inconsistent. Rejectable.

I have to take my own medicine here that I suggested to Nikki.

Indeed "What is it all about?" for me... Is it my mind fearing social

contact? and taking to the extreme? (social anxiety?)

Or is it that I am not getting reassurances of feedback 

as soon as I need it - or as wanted.

Anyways - it's not all of nothing - one sided or another. I'll

get up now and get ready.

peace out.