GGGGGRRRRRR......

Man, i am so angry right now.  I have no clue why i am angry.  well, i am a little upset at work, and upset with Sarah, and upset in general.  I am trying to be calm, but i just feel so upset.  I am that upset where i am trying to rationalize everything.  I need to get out of this mindset.  I want a cigarette so bad!  i know if i have one tho, i will need another, then antoher, and so on so forth.  I feel bad because i am upset.  I am upset with Work because i feel like i am pulling the weight of the whole company (because i am).  I am upset with Sarah, because i cant help but thinking, why does she always run away from the problems, instead of dealing with them.  In almost 7 years of marriage, she has yet to turn to me for any problems.  I feel like she just doesnt care or never did.  The other reason i am upset with her, is the fact that she has not even tried to contact me at all.  once again, why i feel how i do.  I try to get these thoughts out of my head and get no resolve.  I am praying about it again, i just need to calm down.  Nic fit? probably.  I need to work harder to not be so angry.  I have been very good at it lately, i think i am just tired and having one helluva nicfit.  then work didnt help my cause out.  Oh well, i feel calmer now just by writing it all down.  thank you me! lol. anybody reading this, please continue to pray!