Getting my Letters of Administration today - like saying good-be to Smokey all over again.

I am picking up my Letters of Administration today.  Smokey died without a will.  It is almost like saying good-bye to Smokey all over again.  I am crying and tearing all this morning and it is only 6:40 a.m. here in Richmond, BC Canada.  I couldn't figure out why I was feeling so blue.  Once I started to share, I realized why I am feeling so sad and crying.  It makes perfect sense that I feel this way because picking up the Letters of Administration is coming to the point of finalizing the estate once and for all.  It will all be over soon.  I didn't know it would affect me this way.  It came as a surprise for me that is for sure. 
Diane Baillie