getting lost

I get so lost in appeasing my appetites. I don't seem to think

of looking outside of it (under the water line) to do much more

than: eat, drink and keep glued to the TV. I need some stiffener (spiritual rather than alcoholic.)

Something to call me out of my house and give purpose to my day

after work. Right now I am planning to fill my car with gas at around 11am PST.

Today has been a challenging day. I confronted a lot within myself while I worked.

Right now, at home, instead of letting the downtime blur all that's in my mind, maybe it's a good

idea to keep active, busy and ship shape (clean, order and fold). I'll make my bed and arrange my meds.

Perhaps I'll take my brother's dog for a walk. He is staying with me for a week. It's

amazing how living with someone else can really shake your world up to put some daylight

in your eyes as to how lost you get while on your own.