Getting Help

I am been having a rough month. Well last month too. I had been shopping like everyday for the past two months. I spent over $1,000 on clothes, shoes, foods, giving friends money, and etc. I was out of control. I also got an $1,000 loan from Tower Loan early this month. When I got depressed, I felt guilty for what I did. I scraped up $1,000 from my savings, and my SSI check and took $1,013 back to Tower Loan. I had to pay an extra $120.00 for interests. I was glad that I got rid of the loan but I felt bad because I don't have anymore money. I have to start back over saving. It was my fault. I'm learning now. My grandma is in control of my finance now.  I'm not sure if I was manic or if I have a shopping addiction. I hope I can get better. It is a slow process. I'm getting an $10 allowance a week. If I need anything, my grandma will give me the money. I am good today. Thank God!!! My goals is to pay off my debts and save some money every month. I will try to recover from this condition. Pray for me!!