Getting back
I've started to get back into journaling now, even if it is for shorter posts. Today started off crappy- literally. I was in the bathroom from before 6am to after 9 am. In between I might have gotten a few minutes sleep, but not much. I finally fell into a deeper sleep around 9:30 and woke up at 10:30, when I decided to call in sick. You don't like me when I don't get my sleep. I don't like me when I don't get my sleep. When I woke up originally, Geo was curled up on my stomach all cute and such. He's so sweet!
I got only a bit of stuff done today- got my pills that I needed and got some food. I couldn't go very far because I needed to be close to a bathroom at all times. I'm still barely over it. I hope I get good sleep tonight. I'm kinda worried about these bumps on the back of my ear. They are not on my lymph nodes, so it's not that big of a deal, but they are still there. last year there was one, now there are two. The second one is smaller than the first, but I don't like how it's spreading. My health insurance is funky- I have to spend over $750 a month before I can get coverage. If it's going to cost that to get the biopsy, it will be covered. If it's less, I have to pay. I know it doesn't make sense (like having only the first $750 covered, not after you spend it) but that's the way it is. I will go to the clinic on Monday and see about getting an appointment with a doctor to get it checked out.
I'm going to try and go to bed early tonight... It's not that late right now (it's 9 pm) but I want to try and make up some sleep for last night. I know that it's not that good to go to sleep early and wake up late, but I've been waking up at 11am pretty frequently. That would be 13 hours of sleep. That's not a lot compared to the 19 hours that I was getting when I first got back from my mom's. I literally did nothing but sleep and eat. I would wake up, eat something, go back to sleep and repeat. I would stay up a bit after dinner to watch tv with Geo, and then back to sleep again.
Mood is okay today.. not feeling too bad emotionally, just a wreck physically. I hope that tomorrow is a good day. I want to go back to work on Monday. I skipped work all this week. I need to shorten my hours a bit because it's getting to be too much for me. We are getting to my bad time of the year. I wanted to get a job there now, but I know that it's not a good idea. Only if it's something temporary. I might start looking at the mall for part time jobs, but can't do anything with too much standing. Just a thought... but I can't work for too long. I don't know... I have time to figure all of this out. I need to talk to my therapist about it all anyway.
I got only a bit of stuff done today- got my pills that I needed and got some food. I couldn't go very far because I needed to be close to a bathroom at all times. I'm still barely over it. I hope I get good sleep tonight. I'm kinda worried about these bumps on the back of my ear. They are not on my lymph nodes, so it's not that big of a deal, but they are still there. last year there was one, now there are two. The second one is smaller than the first, but I don't like how it's spreading. My health insurance is funky- I have to spend over $750 a month before I can get coverage. If it's going to cost that to get the biopsy, it will be covered. If it's less, I have to pay. I know it doesn't make sense (like having only the first $750 covered, not after you spend it) but that's the way it is. I will go to the clinic on Monday and see about getting an appointment with a doctor to get it checked out.
I'm going to try and go to bed early tonight... It's not that late right now (it's 9 pm) but I want to try and make up some sleep for last night. I know that it's not that good to go to sleep early and wake up late, but I've been waking up at 11am pretty frequently. That would be 13 hours of sleep. That's not a lot compared to the 19 hours that I was getting when I first got back from my mom's. I literally did nothing but sleep and eat. I would wake up, eat something, go back to sleep and repeat. I would stay up a bit after dinner to watch tv with Geo, and then back to sleep again.
Mood is okay today.. not feeling too bad emotionally, just a wreck physically. I hope that tomorrow is a good day. I want to go back to work on Monday. I skipped work all this week. I need to shorten my hours a bit because it's getting to be too much for me. We are getting to my bad time of the year. I wanted to get a job there now, but I know that it's not a good idea. Only if it's something temporary. I might start looking at the mall for part time jobs, but can't do anything with too much standing. Just a thought... but I can't work for too long. I don't know... I have time to figure all of this out. I need to talk to my therapist about it all anyway.
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sorry you arent feeling well, that situation is nasty and you never know when you are going to go. i hope it is short lived. i am glad to hear you are going to talk to your therapist about everything before mking any decisions, it is always good to get another viewpoint. hugsss