Fuck this night

I'm not feeling so well tonight... my neck hurts, my back hurts, I haven't slept, I want to cut myself a lot, I'm feeling really suicidal. It's around 3:30 in the morning and I have to work from 9 to 5 today, god... I feel like shat. I don't know what to say or do really, I need to clean this room and the next one but I don't feel okay so I'll write instead.  Here, I've done a post like this before but I'll do it again...
My Secrets 
1.  I'm a lesbian
2.  I'm not 'out' to my parents but I think they know
3.  I've never met my gf but I'm going to next Tuesday
4.  I've cut myself since 8th grade, I started when I was 13
5.  I have an eating disorder
6.  I like it when my belly is empty
7.  I like to puke up my food
8.  I get really anxious if I eat even one bite or if people are asking me to eat
9.  I'm bored of this
10.I'mma go clean, goodnight...