FRUSTRATED

So, I'm out in my dad's workshop, I have guitar I'm TRYING to fix the fingerboard, It's been 13  year's of misary.

It's Frustrating because I have Cerebral Palsy (it's mild, so that's good)  I know it could be much worse,  I know I could be in a wheelchair, Not being able to do anything for myself, I am thankful for that.  But, I do have tremor's in my hand's,  So it's not easy, But, none-the-less  I do try.

My mom use to tell me, Consider Youself lucky,  You could in a wheelchair not being able to do anything for Yourself. I do know it's frustrating for those people,  But, aren't I allowed To be frustrated also??

Plus, I have this other situation on my mind with this family who have downsyndrome son,who doesn't have a little brother......Who made me feel worthless, when he Gloated, when got something of mine, Then would make me follow him upstairs, So, he could make it hurt even more, By boasting to his mother........If You want something of mine, take it, and leave me alone.  But, I know he doesn't want anything,  He just want's a reaction out of me.

Feel's like this family Never cared, As long they got a pretend brother for their son,  I have nothing to do with their/his frustration.  I never got a say in going over to their house,  Someone could have asked me how I felt, As I got older, I was 5 when I met them, So, nothing made since, Still doesn't.