frightened, twichy. thurs oct 20,2011 10.a.m.

 ya everyone said BE HONEST WITH THE NURSE  SHE WILL GET YOU HELP. ha ha  see what happens when you are honest about things like this. its snow balling into a beg fat thing. im afraid. i dnt want drug feind on my permanent record. doc hasnt even called back now she wants me to call my reg doc. its a big fat mess. no one is going to help me  im on my own as ussuall. they say they want the truth, but dont think they realy do. i will prob be penalized somehow for this. what if i am in acuall pain in the future and i have that crap on my record, then im fucked. i let everyone talk me into this. i was just going to do the cold turky which im goin to have to do anyway, just now it will be OFFICIAL. i feel like elain on sienfeld wene she was trying to get her records back. im going to be an aggrevator or instagater. i dont need any of this crap. ok, moore later.