Friendships
Day 41 of 365 - Man Break
Today I just can't put my finger on what's wrong with me. I have been so down lately. I guess not completely down just dissatisfied. Everyone seems to be pissing me off. I wonder if there are any nice and normal people out there. And I'm not even talking about men this time. I'm trying to form more friendships with women because I don't want to have some sort of social interaction but it seems like everyone is just disappointing.
There was this one girl that I met at my dance class and everything was cool at first. We started having lunch together and went out on the weekends sometimes. But she was like a pretty package because when I started unwrapping it, it wasn't as nice on the inside. There was one day I called her upset about something thinking she might be supportive she listened for about 10 minutes and then said she had to go. She started being late for some of our lunches. She would say she wanted to go out and I would arrange everything with my kids and then she couldn't go. She was competitive and always wanted to know what I was going to wear when we went out and never had ideas of her own. She wasn't anything like I thought. At first she was a single Mom like me then she got a boyfriend and moved in with him within months. She was working then quit her job to take another job and then quit that and now she's not working at all. It's almost like that was her plan when she moved in with her boyfriend. She never spends time with her kids. She is just NOTHING like I thought she was and now I'm not sure what to do. She never talks to me on the phone just texts me when she wants to do something or wants to know what I'm going to wear. It seems like an empty friendship.
I really miss having a girlfriend. Someone you can laugh with and share with and who reciprocates. I haven't had a really GOOD friend in ages. I wonder what I am doing wrong?
There are some other women in my hip hop class that I am getting closer to and they seem really supportive but as for someone who I could say is my best friend that is just not happening:(
Today I just can't put my finger on what's wrong with me. I have been so down lately. I guess not completely down just dissatisfied. Everyone seems to be pissing me off. I wonder if there are any nice and normal people out there. And I'm not even talking about men this time. I'm trying to form more friendships with women because I don't want to have some sort of social interaction but it seems like everyone is just disappointing.
There was this one girl that I met at my dance class and everything was cool at first. We started having lunch together and went out on the weekends sometimes. But she was like a pretty package because when I started unwrapping it, it wasn't as nice on the inside. There was one day I called her upset about something thinking she might be supportive she listened for about 10 minutes and then said she had to go. She started being late for some of our lunches. She would say she wanted to go out and I would arrange everything with my kids and then she couldn't go. She was competitive and always wanted to know what I was going to wear when we went out and never had ideas of her own. She wasn't anything like I thought. At first she was a single Mom like me then she got a boyfriend and moved in with him within months. She was working then quit her job to take another job and then quit that and now she's not working at all. It's almost like that was her plan when she moved in with her boyfriend. She never spends time with her kids. She is just NOTHING like I thought she was and now I'm not sure what to do. She never talks to me on the phone just texts me when she wants to do something or wants to know what I'm going to wear. It seems like an empty friendship.
I really miss having a girlfriend. Someone you can laugh with and share with and who reciprocates. I haven't had a really GOOD friend in ages. I wonder what I am doing wrong?
There are some other women in my hip hop class that I am getting closer to and they seem really supportive but as for someone who I could say is my best friend that is just not happening:(
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