friends are frustrating

 today a friend stopped by whom i usualy just talk to on the phone...she said i looked like crap and i walked strange...no one takes this hepc serious untill your gone...i guess i'm frustrated that people expect me to be like i used to be when i was well...i can't...walking is hard from the neuropothy which i'm sure stemed from my liver not functioning right..i'm very thin and some of my other friends would like me to help clean they're house ...babysit and i just can't do it...i don't want sympathy just not to be expected so much of...i sure wish i could do those things again but can't...hope my mood is better tomorrow sick of feeling frustrated and angry at what i've done to myself...my heart realy goes out to those who have this virus that never did drugs and weren't careless with they're health..God bless them